Tuesday, July 29, 2008

I think Im growing up


Almost a year ago, I can still recall how this new place have treated me. Dubai. With all its grandeur and world class "must see" places. With the promise of a good life apart from the rat race of a life I was running back home. Over the year i have grown up so much. Although I dont know if it happened willingly or forcibly.

Forgive my melodramatic tone today. Must have been a result of a hormonal imbalance that I go through every month as part of being a woman.

Back to my topic. I was just reading some blog posts and as usual a series of dull colored filmstrips ran in my mind. Aahh. Those were the good 'ol days of movie watching,karaoke, shopping, road tripping and lazy afternoon coffee sessions.Back home where the wind always blows from the west and we never miss rain. where the lush green of the mountains surrounds us everywhere and suddenly like a plug taken out from its hole , i was transported to space. So it all began.

The level of excitement in the first few weeks were high. New place, new faces. Of course I also went through that different kind of high. But when the summer heat started sinking. My life started going haywire. Then I got my first sucky job and finally the big break. phew! Life aint easy.

Its been more than a year now and I have adjusted quite well with just one simple rule. If they kick my butt, I kick back twice as hard. You have to learn how to fight and prove what you've got. There's no sense fading in the background. And I guess thats how people started noticing me and thats exactly why Im here now instead of that dreadful call center pit.

But most of all, I still miss my friends. I dont know why but I dont seem to make the same set of friends here. Looking forward to be with them on my vacation.

Right now , Im happy to be with someone that I can share this great place with. My love. He is just somewhere around here.. Hmm..what a great feeling it is.




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Wednesday, July 09, 2008

across the miles...


It’s been almost a year since I last wrote an entry on this blog.. and everytime I browse through it and read some of the stuff I wrote, I always feel like puking!! Hehehe

Was I that pathetic before?? :P nevertheless, it captured a lot of memories, memories with my two best friends and how idealistic, stupid and insane we were before when we were still together.

If  I can remember it right, I knew I cried a lot when helene left for dubai june of last year but deana was still here so I knew it was harder for helene, her being alone and in a new place. But, the same thing happened this year and in the same month, this time it was deana who left for manila. I cried again, as expected.

 

A lot of things have happened recently; I just transferred to a new place. This time, I am alone with no one to share it with. But hey, it’s not that bad. This time I get to hitch a ride home in Jonathans’ car plus I get to eat with a lot of PS friends.

I spend most of my time in the office or in the solace of my crib just watching dvds, listening to music or reading some books.

 

I’d say not having the two of them here with me is not that bad because it would probably help me mature. I just got so used to having them around listening to me whine and not deal with my problems seriously knowing I have them anyway. Now, i have to take good care of myself alone.. hehe :P I still have a lot of friends but as I told the two of them these friends I have right now are incomparable to the two of them.

 

To my lalabs, I am counting the days when the three of us will be able to spend that planned vacation together.. J you take care and I am missing you guys more and more everyday…

 




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Friday, October 05, 2007

Highlight of my week


It is a hellish week in fact and qouting my daily horoscope in friendster which preached " Things are changing in an unpleasant way -- but this is a learning opportunity." I couldnt put it in any way better to describe it.
 
First off. The biggest scare of my life hit me when my carelessness almost cost me  1,000 Euros. Convert it to peso. Do the math and you'll see me panic stricken, sweating with bullets, tears strolling down my cheeks while Im clicking away to confirm a very restrictive reservation. If the agent takes it - well and good. If not, let's just say that I maybe penniless for the next two months which is an additional financial burden on top of what Im already in. Good thing, God is with me all this time and like a miracle , this agent with a not-so-good booking history with our company confirmed it in writing which saved my sorry ass. It isnt ironed out completely yet as I am still struggling to help him with another booking in a diff city to keep it a bundle and I could not finish the whole messy booking without it.
Sigh.The risk is really sky high with this job and to think that I was initially hired to be an admin assistant only. Now my scope of responsibility is left undefined which goes the same with my designation. Everything is spiraling out of hand and sometimes I cant help but feel sorry for myself. My brother always tells me to stand up and fight back but the truth is, this is not a battle that I want to fight. The reality of the situation is that I am at the foot of the hierarchy and I have to bow down to their wishes most of the time.
 
There are still days that I get sick about thinking why Im here and why Im allowing all these to happen and again some fleeting moment where I can almost feel like Im on the right track to success. But it all boils down to the question of being happy and right now I am not even near that radar.
 
Maybe someday, when I can afford it and when I have my passport handy. I'll catch the next flight out of this limbo. Without looking back and with a huge smile of victory on my face. But I hope when that happens I'll have some good cash to spend and rebuild my life elsewhere.
 
Lookin at pictures, imagining what I could have been doing back home, thinking about what job might fit me just right in Pinas..those are the things that keeps me busy sometimes like an idiot--- thinking and rethinking...specially when we're on the transpo on the way home. While my officemates are deeply engrossed in there Hindi conversation, I am left staring at the rushing traffic outside my window  pretending that I dont exist.
 
I know I would have been great in Pinas. Im a nobody here.
 
I miss you mga labs and our usual rantings..asa namn mo???!!! :(



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Thursday, June 21, 2007

The chase


Girl meets boy. Girl falls head over heels. Boy flirts but goes after some other girl. Rotten cycle. But somehow you get caught up in the loop. You're lucky if the person you love decides to love you back otherwise you're in for a huge let down .

But you stick by him like a leech, stealing a glance when he isnt looking and silently adoring his smile or going gaga when he runs his fingers through his hair.

Inhale. Exhale.

He confides things to you and you subtly act is if it doesnt flatter you a bit when in fact your liver has grown the size of your lungs. Unknowingly, your feelings are starting to take roots. Plus the fact that he waters them with that heartwarming smile, and that gut-wrenching jokes that he cracks. He even takes you out on random dates, holds your hand and steals and few kisses. But you dont ever speak about it. You are left somewhere between the undefined and the non-existent but you ride along coz you simply cant let the opportunity pass you by. Then you fall deeper, waiting and hoping that someday that person will see you on a friggin different light aside from being the friend who's always there at his every whim.

But quite suddenly, someone steals your show. The spotlight hovers and shoots in on someone else leaving you silently discarded, shipped back to the shadow where you once belong.You turn green with envy but you have to bring up a facade that it doesnt affect you the slightest bit because the rules were never laid. You aint complaining because you agreed to be at that undefined dimension where you are left wondering if you will ever get somewhere.

You sometimes wonder if he ever hears your heart breaking when you hear about the other girl he is currently into.Does he ever notice that your smile is slightly broken compared to before? Does he even have the slightest idea that you already fell for him?

Is there anything more painful than chasing someone who chose to chase someone else?




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Monday, June 18, 2007

Mga walang kwentang surbey


HELENE

 

-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told YOU that they love you?

syempre all of them.

 

-Have you ever thought that you were going to marry a person?

most probably yes.

 

-Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurts?

if it hurts, then its real, right?

 

-Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?

yeah.

 

-Are you happier single or in a relationship?

I dictate my own happiness. Single or otherwise.

 

-Have you ever been cheated on?

In this crooked world ,yes.

 

-What is your favorite physical thing about the opposite sex?

sunny smile.

 

-Have you ever had your heart broken?

yes

 

-Have you ever broken someone's heart?

hmmm...lemme see..dunno really.

 

-If you could go back in time and change things with any of your ex's, would you do it?

Nada. Things happen for a reason.

 

-Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?

I'd like to believe that I am.

 

-Have you been in an abusive relationship?

Nope. Wouldnt allow it.

 

-Have you dated someone older than you?

Yes.

 

-Younger?

Nope but Im open to it. ( haha! ) Fantasy ito!

 

-Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Yes. but I'd play it safe the second time around.

 

-Believe in love at first sight?

Im still about to meet that person who will make me fall at first glance.

 

-Ever dated two people at once?

yes. But both knew what was going on.

 

-Ever been given an Engagement ring?

nope.

 

-Do you want to get married?

Someday.

 

-Do you have something to say to any of your exes?

nada.

 

-Ever stolen someone's boyfriend or girlfriend?

Somehow, Im not too sure. hehe

 

-Ever liked someone's boyfriend or girlfriend?

yeah. like ra ha!

 

-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?

It is what it is. Like dying a thousand deaths.

 




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Thursday, June 07, 2007

saying goodbye


june 8, 7:55pm.. lene finally left..off to dubai...

at work i cudn't understand how i was feeling. i've been dreading the hour till i finally will have to go the airport to bid lene goodbye...deana was crying while she was writing her letter to lene. i was so damn pissed off with pete because he's taking such a long time in doing all his work while i was waiting for us to go home so we can resst before going to the airport..while pete was busy and kept asking this random questions if lene has already packed and all..we were getting crazy trying so hard to reassure ourselves that it's ok that lene is finally going to leave us.

we were suppose to meet lene at the aiport at 5:30pm. as usual. we were late. and again im blaming pete for it because its so damn hard to wake him up. and not to mention the traffic..we finally reached the airport at around 615pm. we saw lene with her family.. she had already checked in.. we were acting as if everything is ok. laughing,fooling around.. and took pictures again..=(
then came the time when lene had to finally leave.. i don't know but i just started crying, it all started to sink in that i may not see her for such a long time. deana started crying as well, while we were hugging. i can't believe that i will not be able to talk to her anytime i need her or that she won't be there anymore during outings and that deana will be alone now at the backseat of IZA. =( i couldn't stop crying nor bear to see lene leave so i just sat down on one of the chairs and dee followed.. pete crazy as he is took some picturs while we were crying.. but i know he was just trying hard not to get too emo himself as he dint really wana cry..

we left the aiport and went to MB's Tavern to eat dinner, we were so silent on our way not the usual happy scene we used to have..ordered a lot because we're depressed??! we even acted as if lene was there.. twas crazy.. we were thinking of watching a movie(last full show) but it was almost 10pm when we left..on our way back to the city we were so silent again with only the music in the ipod playing. we passed by the airport again.. and i know it's crazy but i just started crying again and so was deana. pete must have been in silent panic mode already as he doesn't have any idea on what to do. he finally asked s where we wanna go. I suggested mountain view or TOPs, he dint agree because we'll just end up getting emo again. he suggested paseo of which both me and dee disagreed, I definitely was not in the mood to party or be in a bar..we ended up driving around the city passing all the possible hang out places and settled at BO's in BTC. We stayed there until 11pm and dee finally decided to  just go home. We dropped her off her house and pete and I just drove around the city not knowing where to go. I know he was very sleepy already and I was as well. Ending..we parked beside the vacant lot of our office and went to sleep from 11pm till 4am. When we woke up, we just sat there..listening to some songs.. and well i kind of remembered lene again and cried..while pete was busy deleting hundreds of his text messages. We just sat there and just fooled around until the sun started to rise and then we went off to look for a place where we can have our breakfast. We ate at Mcdonalds..stayed there just talking about office stuff.. weird! and then went to Shell gasoline stattion to load IZA with some gasoline.. We bought some iced coffee and just sat there talking about random stuffs again, bout friends and family while the sun and the rain where battling. Can you believe like we were sunbathing under the heavy downpour.. according to pete.. the heavens could not decide.. just like him.. a LIBRA!! anyways, we eventually left and went home.. and here i am writing this entry...lene.. i miss u.. :( hope u arrived safely there in dubai..




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Sunday, April 22, 2007

Sweet escape


With sweat mostly trickling down our spine because of the heat that summer has brought upon. All three of us were dying to get a road trip, a dip in the beach and just some good 'ol time bonding. Not that this was a spur of the moment thingy. You see, everytime we plan some get away from the city, something goes wrong. It's like there is some invisible hand that snaps and ruins our plans. First, there was the manila trip. Then the bohol trip and the dancing class that we were so hyped to take but never happened. But we werent gonna make it happen this time. Itinerary was roadtrip up north. First stop - san Remegio. Second stop- bantayan islands. Dee and I have never been to San Rem while ES was there last year with her former team. The great thing about this trip is that we've got our own wheels, someone behind the wheel of course while we take our usual crazy pictures and some big time friend who owns the place. Isnt that swell? Private vacation ahead and we felt like being treated as royalties. I've been to Bantayan a couple of times yet I havent had enough of that awesome island. It calls me in my sleep sometimes. But the three friends I were with ( Im talking about them as if I dont know them at all..hehe) it seems like they werent even curious at all for the last 24 sumthing years of their lives coz they never found the time to visit it. Gawd! seriously, i felt like only cave people havent gone to bantayan ( ok! that's it. I am so getting a spank from all three of them ) Anyhow, I've had my share of the place. The booze, the guys , the most embarrassing moment, the sunset and the quiet moments where I used to have my 12 mins sessions.teehe! It's about time I share that place with the people who has made me very happy for the last 3 yrs of my life. So here it goes. Every bits and pieces of what transpired during our sweet escape.

Left at 4am in the morning. They picked me up at the office and we headed to our destination. Stopped to load gas on Mallow's wheels. Stopped for bread and crinkles and we were on our merry way. Three hours of house music and some rewind tracks from ES phone and stopped to take a shot of a supposedly beautiful sunrise somewhere in Carmen but we didnt have the right spot. Arrived San Remegio Elegant Beach Resort at around 7am. We could have gone faster than that if Dee took a sleeping pill and was out the whole ride but she wasnt so that means all of us will have to bear with the drag. Nothing beyond the 50-60 speed limit or Mz ice queen is gonna start her sermon while were on vacation. Teehee! We really love her you know. Even of she's like that we love that she pulls the reins together  when all of us have crazy thoughts on our head like Mallows hitting the accelerator on a 170km/hour pace to get there as soon as we can. We had brunch when we got there. Barbeque and grilled fish plus some dehydrated noodle soup. Took our pictorials in the beach - i guess we have our lovely choreographed pictures to proove that and just enjoyed the rest of the afternoon drinking Iced tea.Mallows and ES were kinda having their moment. Dee was busy taking her own pictures while I was lying on the reclined chair toasting under the heat of the sun to get some tan.Later that afternoon, Dee and I grooved to some hip hop music on Mallow's Ipod and used the pole as some imaginary guy we were dancing with. Good thing there werent people around because they might have mistaken us to be hoes...hehe we dance good. Especially when nobody's watching.That same afternoon we took a dip on their pool and tried out the jacuzzi. Weeeheee...we had it all to ourselves. Then we had some afternoon nap before we ate the feast of a dinner that the cooks prepared. We had calamares, barbeque, fried chicken, sinigang and grilled fish. Even chilled buko to top it all. I was so full I felt like I was gonna puke. Then we hanged out by the beach for a while looking at the stars ( I bet someone had her moment..hmmmmm..) I had to bounce because I was so sleepy that first night. Prolly because all the excitement has already worn off when we got there.


Second day, We had this crazy idea of playing with the hose sprinkler to have our own wet bikini show. Skipped and hopped in the garden until we were all so tired. But wait..it never stopped us from heading to Bantayan. We rode the fastcraft so it took us only 30 mins to get there. Got our ride from KOTA beach and settled in our room which had an ocean view. Swell!! swell! swell! Twas time to take out our second two piece. We ate packed lunched which was grilled pork belly and rice and we ate like soldiers who havent had lunch for days. Nyahahah!..We rented a boat later that afternoon to  do island hopping and snorkeling. First stop- virgin islands. Sweet! Took out our rented gears and got stung by some jellyfish. That was my cue to stop and Dee's too. And ES was back on board as well. Next stop- Hilantagaan island. Nothing there but some Kubo and heaps of white sand but we took videos of us dancing by the beach. I thought we were gonna visit some more islands but Dee was on her paranoia streak again about the boat tipping upside down.She was complaining about her feet being sore because she was trying to hold still while the boat was rocking. Poor Dee but that's her and we still love her despite that. At least she has conquered her fear of riding small boats but I guess we will never get her to conquer her fear of riding cars in high speed. After taking a breather, we took a walk by the beach up until the shore of Sugar Beach resort and basked under the afternoon sunlight.We kinda just talked about where we were gonna be a year after and we made a pact to update each other come April 18, 2008. Wherever the sands of time may take us.We had dinner at Mabuhay restaurant and had a horrible experience with this waitress with an attitude.Imagine her dishing out the dishes when we werent done yet with our meal. How rude. How sooo annoying that she had to respond to our complaint in a very unacceptable manner. Even mallows- the most amiable person I know in this planet- lost his cool. We took our ride home and vowed to never come back. Wow. They just lost four customers and hell, we're gonna spread the word and tell people about it. Just because we looked like rags out of style when we went there doesnt mean we deserve to be treated poorly compared to foreigners coz we werent gonna eat at that pricy place in the first place if we didnt have some good cash. I guess some people just needs to learn it the hard way and some people just dont care if they are giving shitty service to their customers! Anywayz, we didnt let that lil incident ruin our night. We hanged out at the beach again and talked about some pretty serious stuffs. Somethin about life, drama, and guys and girls and other whatnots.Dee and I had a confrontation that night. I know lil sisters arent suppose to tell older sisters what not to do but sometimes everything gets to hazy that they just need to be shoved at the right direction.We're still friends though and even closer than before. ES as usual was starry eyed that night. Even with all the crazy questions at the back of her head and the talk about algaes that light up when disturbed. I headed back at the room and talked some more to Dee and we ended up laughing it off. We had one simple rule that vacation "no 12 mins moment".

Early the next morning, we felt sad all of a sudden because we were past halfway our vacation. And we werent gonna waste it moping around and sulking while the glorious sun is still out there rising in full swing. We rented bikes so that we can tour the place and went to Ogtong Cave where we got ripped off for like a 30 minute dip we took at their cave. Gosh, these days, everything comes with a price and a real expensive one at that. We had to use Mallow's card because we only brought small cash. But we took pictures to get our money's worth and gave them the smug look of dissatisfaction when we left. Honestly, I was a little scared in the  inside because with all the hating we have had since we got there, those locals could have poisoned our food while we werent looking. But that was just some lame thought because I am so here..Alive and trying to recall every bit of heaven we've had.hehe...Going back, we took the fascraft to Hagnaya at 1:30 pm. All burned and tired. The driver met us at the wharf and we headed back to San Rem to pick up our things.Finally, we have come to our end of the vacation but not without our last stop....tadang! JOLLIBEE. Just two days without it and we felt like addicts on a relapse. hehe.. Dee and Mallows ordered 2 sets of meal while ES and I settled for one but with desserts on the side. We headed home with some good music and I couldnt quite recall anymore what jokes we were laughing at but I sure had a lot to do about it.Our stomachs were aching badly after we cracked jokes one after another.

Not everyone gets to enjoy a vacation this much and  I sure thank God for giving me such great friends to share it with. ES was starry eyed all throughout the whole ride while Dee and I had satisfied smiles on our faces.ES has finally found that person whose gonna make her reach the moon , fight some silly things over , take her to lunch in the middle of the night and maybe give her whatever her heart wishes. I dont wanna jinx whatever it is that is going on right now with her and Mallows but I feel relieved that somehow she has found that person to share it with. Dee on the other hand is excited over the fact that her hubby-to-be is coming home earlier than expected. Im sure she's in the panic mode again to shop for lingeries and clothes to show off to him.Im glad everything is turning out well for both of them. As for me, I never had my share of "12 mins mode" while on the vacation coz I didnt want to ruin something that might get me teary eyed in the future when Im already halfway around the world finding my own place in this planet. And maybe, that someone meant for me is still out there figuring out a way to break down the wall I have built around my heart.Until then, I'll just be here  turning green with envy.hehe.. Kidding. I luv yah sisters!:)



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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

my first PTO for the year!!


OK so finally after 3 months i finally decided to give myself one day off frm work.. not a rest day but a paid time off..or what we commonly call as LEAVE! why? because i wanted to be ready for my outing with LALAbs and mallows.. Mallows and deana did the same thing..so when I was out shopping with mallows the other day, during dinner he suddenly mentioned about having our vacation a day earlier since were all not working anyways except for helene which means two nights at their resort and 1 night in Bantayan! splendid idea and because he was way too crazy about it in the middle of dinner He called lene and told her to file a PTO as well so we can travel monday..thats today! so I ended up calling deana as well. Deana as I have already predicted was ecstatic.. She was very excited she felt she needed to buy 1 more pair of swimwear..hehe..typical dee! anyways.. to cut the story short.. helene never got the approval so mallows, dee and Moi ended up spending the day at the mall to supposedly buy the stuffs we need for our rendezvous.So here's how I spent my one day off: I had breakfast with mallows after work and went home. chatted with my cousins for a bit and waited for deana to come over. She wanted to see our new magic sing! well to actually use it was her intention..hehe..so after lunch I got ready while deana was singing her heart out. we were suppposed to meet mallows at 3pm. First stop at the mall..ladies room.. retouch! hehe and off  to pick up my new glasses. We met mallows at the optical shop. It was too early for us to start our groceries, so we ended up going to the shop to have his car reconditioned for our roadtrip the next day afterwhich we went back to the mall, ate at INASAL where there was no lechon! :P and finally decided to ride the train. Now here's the highlight.deana wanted to ride the kiddy train so much that we ended up buying tickets for three and was queued in line for the next round. Unfortunately when the train arrived, all these kids just came running off riding the train and we din't have any space left.So deana got so pissed off. she tried to argue with the girl frm the ticketing booth and we ended up getting a refund for our tickets and headed off to the admin office for deana to file a complaint.!! this left me and mallows laughing so hard!. Lene joined us a bit later ready with her backpack.then we headed off to the supermarket. It was getting late and I was getting very dizzy every minute. We planned to meet at 430am to start our jaunt. So i asked deana if she could just possibly sleep in our house, everything was set and lene was already hungry so we went to eat dinner at NEONEO. During which mallows offered that deana and me will just stay overnight in their house instead and we will just pick up helene after her work. The sad ending.. since mallows had to drive over to dees house and mine so we can pick up our stuff and we were so ashamed of him already for all the things he did.. Deana left one of the outfits she has prepared for the outing and I ended up bringing a bunch of shorts and skirt and only brought 3 shirts.. Goodluck! So here I am now.. using mallows PC and writing this entry while deana is playing with mallows playstation.. mallows.. fast asleep in the couch...now I better get some rest as well or Id end up sleeping the entire day tomorrow.  gnyt!



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Wednesday, April 11, 2007

when we fall in love


MY THREE CENTS...

for all those years we have been together, our lives have become an open book to the three of us. we have all witnessed the happenings in each of our lives whether it be the good or the not so good times. I am just so happy now that we have managed to step up to all those not so good times maybe a bit scarred but renewed. we have all learned a lot from those and hopefully we wouldnt commit the same stupid mistakes again. HOPEFULLY lng, cause sometimes we can also be stupid bya. i just know us too well.hahaha

TO ES: i am so happy for you! i know u have been through a lot and i wanna congratulate you for overcoming all of it. ur strong and i know therell come a time when we try to reminisce all these, mgkatawa nlng ta! bilib kaau ko nimo cause if it were me cguro, ambot everyday nko ng 12 mins.hahaha

i know ngworry ka what will happen to you if i get married na and helene's going abroad na but i will still be here noh! maybe there might be a bit difference but still im here if u need me. and besides, he will only be here til september, so after that, ill be back to being single again! :P

and also there's mallows. he is just in time. i like him for you! GO! GO! GO!haha basta labs, go with the flow. cross the bridge when you get there! dont worry things na d angay iworry for now cause mkguba sa atong emotional HIGH!

TO HELENE: i am so happy for you too! congratulations! graduate njud tawn ka! i know u have dreamed of going abroad jud so just go for it. u really deserve it. u have been through a lot compared to all those 21 year old people i know and bilib kaau ko. u have overcome all of them head on. we will surely miss you when that time comes.

i know u now have PANGS in ur life. all i can say is, just take it slow. u know what i mean. savor all the moment..hahaha and i have already told es abt this, lemme just also tell u this: go with the flow. cross the bridge when you get there! dont worry things na d angay iworry for now! ;)

basta mga labs, u dont have to think twice to tell me sumthing or wait for a week to tell me sumthing. i know mangasaba ko SOMETIMES, but its just that. i am still ur friend. i wont judge u for that.

thanks for the friendship! I am so looking forward to our outing next week! i know  kamo sd!

 




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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

if we fall in love


Here's my own two cents:

For the few times i fell in love, i know I have yet to learn a lot. I am not the most intelligent person when it comes to loving. Regrets, yes I've had a lot! For the past five months of my life I have lived it regretting and hoping things will get better, sadly it didn't. The good thing is, after all the bad things and stupidity I've done, I have not become a cynic in terms of LOVE. I am not the old hopeless romantic person full of idealism either. It was a very rough way of learning some lessons but I am still quite thankful for it.

It's true no matter how carefully you have chosen the person you're gonna end up with, it doesn't guarantee you a lifetime happiness or a strong relationship that would last till you're both old and gray. I believe that things always happen for a reason, it's all up to us and our partner how we deal with the circumstances that will come our way. It's inevitable to have tough times, how you both will stick together to work it out is the true test.

 For dee: Don't worry I am not gonna say I told you so! Hehe.. kidding aside, lene's right it's a high point that your about to take. I know you're a strong person and you surely think better than I do when it comes to being SANE when in love. I know you're happy and I am happy for you too. Always remember when the going gets tough.. we're here to support you!

For lene: As I have said during our conversation yesterday, I have come to realize that the feeling of being empty was all of my own doing. Now that I have started to really appreciate being single I have just noticed, I'm half filled already. I know you feel the same way. All I can say is , enjoy what is it YOU have now *wink* but always think of the possible consequences that it will bring you! Fine! Fine! I'm sounding like a big sister here.. hehe ok just do it and enjoy! Hehehehaha

 To both of you: Words could not describe how much you both mean to me and how thankful I am to have friends like you. I know I should just be happy knowing that you're both taking big steps to you're future. But as selfish as it sounds, I am gonna terribly miss both of you, so I hope you both change you minds!! Hehehehe.. JOKE!! There's mallows(edited version) anyway… pssstttt!!! *blush*




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